Got myself a little Christmas present...

So for the past month or so I've really been craving a tattoo. More specifically, I've been craving a four-leaf clover tattoo. My wanting of this tattoo has been fueled recently by watching several episodes of L.A. Ink. Not only that, but some associates at work have some new inkwork as well. Tonight I decided after work if I could find a design of a four-leaf clover I liked, I would get the tattoo.

I knew before searching of these things: I wanted it on the inside of my wrist and I did not want some cheesy cartoony looking bright green design, in fact, I was leaning more toward black outline and gray shading.

After searching I found the PERFECT design on, of all places, Jo-Ann fabrics, more specifically, Jo-Ann Designs. I could never describe it in words so here it is:
It looks a little misshapen only because it's a little swollen from just having it done but I love it love it love it. Simple and black. And a four-leaf clover. Here's hoping it brings me some luck!

hit me, beat me...it's okay, because i love you......

That seems to be what a friend of mine is thinking. Over a year ago she was dating said girlfriend hitter. He got mad at her (oh but he was really wasted) and smacked her around. She ended things that night when he did that and soon after she moved to a different state for a job. Well, she ended up moving back to MI and what is the first thing she said to me? That she misses said a-hole and that she's going to see him. Didn't take too long before she said she wants him back, blah blah blah - and it seems that it's heading toward a reconciliation/getting back together. He's actually being the intelligent one in this case and holding things off. For whatever reason, and I've never met him, but I've never got a good feeling about him.

I just would not let someone back into my life that hit me at any time. A person does not hit another if they love them, and sorry to sound sexist, but a man does not hit a woman. I'm all about equality in the workplace, and equality when it comes to the mind. But there are definitely physical differences between women and men that cannot be denied. A man who hits a woman is using those differences as leverage and power over a woman and that makes them a giant coward. Not only a coward but the biggest a-hole on the planet.

When my friend starts talking about this a-hole, I really don't say anything. I've made my feelings about him known back when she first started talking about seeing him again. Reminding her of the beating. Guess it went in one ear and out the other. And here I never thought she'd become one of those broken women who takes the abuse because they believe there is nothing else.

Okay, I'm done ranting about horrible men. How about a head-scratcher instead? I was out yesterday at one of my favorite local semi-fast food semi-chains (it's very localized to the west side of the state). I was brushing the snow off of my car (because in the 20 minutes I was inside the place, the snow had piled up to where I couldn't see, yeah I was happy) when a car pulls in, and I hear "Excuse me ma'am?" So I turn, and there's a guy pretty much blocking my car with his in the lot. He says "I need to get to Allegan?" So immediately I thought he needed directions, because he ended the statement with the up inflection on Allegan, which says question, not statement. So I said, "Okayyyyyy..." and he said, "No, I know how to get there, I just am out of gas and I am wondering if you have any spare change?" To which I said, "I don't have any cash, sorry." And he drove off.

Let's see. You drive around asking for money for gas, but yet you're out of gas. Here's a thought, STOP DRIVING AROUND. You're using more gas driving around than making it I'm sure to make it to Allegan. Oh, and I did have cash. I just prefer not to give it to morons.

As far as my craftiness is concerned, I've been holding myself back from buying more yarn. I'm very very close to finishing my gray blouson sweater (I have maybe a half-inch to go on the body and then it's the arms and then I'm done). I've told myself I'm not buying any yarn until after Christmas and so far I've been good about this (despite several almost breaking points because of sales). I have several projects I want to do lined up. I started a scarf for myself too, because I bought a new coat, and a new dark purple scarf would look soooooooo nice. My natty hat did NOT turn out after blocking. It would be a great kid's hat. Too small for my big head. Perhaps I'll donate it to the homeless shelter here.

Onto trying to get that sweater done and blocking TODAY!

hey you i don't like your girlfirend.....

.....so apparently I am someone's girlfriend and I didn't even know it..... It of course, isn't true... But I'm continuously baffled by this person's behavior and the jealousy behind it... One of my best friends happens to be male. Not only male, but a married male at that. We used to work for the same company, but now work for different companies. Despite that, we've kept up our friendship because we're able to talk about anything and everything, and being the friends that we are - we do the whole cheering up thing when one of us is down. We only talk before work (on the drive to work) or after work (again, on the drive home). We don't talk on weekends. We don't talk after 5:30pm or so at night. We haven't seen each other in months (since before he left the company). But according to his wife, our friendship must end. He is too emotionally involved with me. WHAT?

She went through his phone bill, saw that on some days he talks to me for a half hour or so, and demanded he stop talking to me. Okay. So I'm single. He's not. There is where I would initially raise my eyebrows if he were my husband. But as I said, we don't see each other. In fact, he's home every night. I put myself in her shoes and tried as hard as I could to see things from her point of view and I cannot bring myself to be as jealous as that when there is no reason to be. She in fact even said that "I know nothing physical is going on because you're always home". But she's worried about him being too emotionally involved with me. Yeah, let me just say, my friend is NOT an emotional person. That's what makes the friendship work - I'm the emotional one - and the emotional part is not me gushing my love for him or asking him to be with me - it's my freak-outs at work or freak-outs about my latest dating failure - he grounds me when I become a wreck.

It just irritates me that he gets treated like that when there is no cause. We have to sneak around to talk like we actually are having the affair she seems to think we're having.

Anyway. So the guy I mentioned in the previous post is still after me. I found out something disturbing and that is he's into prescription drugs and doing "whippits". I just can't bring myself to being okay with that. It's not okay. It's dangerous and stupid. It's just one more thing on top of everything else which tells me to stay away. So I'm keeping my distance. I talk to him, but that's it. If at anytime he brings up seeing each other I make up an excuse. Yeah, I'm a chickenshit like that. I'd rather be evasive then say flat out what I'm feeling when it comes to dating him. No wonder I get the same treatment by guys. I guess it is true, what goes around comes around.

Dammit.