Oh what a tangled web we weave.......

i don't even know where to begin... a couple of days ago i started talking to someone that i swore i would never talk to again... someone who berated me and basically said that what i wanted out of life was never to be had because it was impossible... but yet here i get drawn back in by this person.. they claim that they have changed. they claim that they realized what they had lost when the let me go. they claim that i am what they want.

inside of me there is nagging doubt. i have pretty good intuition when it comes to reading people. it isn't 100% accurate, but then again, nothing is. i just feel like i am being set up again for a big fall. i have a feeling he's yet again weaving a tangled web of lies that i will have to cut myself free of.

i would rather be alone than be a part of something that is based on lies.

my brain and lack of oxygen...

i have heard that people yawn due to a lack of oxygen.. oxygen of course is necessary for us to live and one of the many components that keeps a human alive (and hopefully somewhat cognizant) is brain activity....

last night while working on the many many stitched sweater (which despite my complaining, i am falling more in love with every day because the tiny stitches and soft yarn are so pretty), i FINALLY got to the point of decreasing and separating the arms.. well my dumb ass thinks "oh i don't need a second circular needle for that, i can just slip the arm stitches onto a DPN and everything will work"... um.. think mcfly think.. i had to join the round after slipping the arms (those who have done top down raglans know what i mean).. after slipping them to a DPN, i found.. shockingly.. that the needle was too long and i couldn't join the round..

i attribute this to a lack of oxygen to my brain since i was tired last night when i got to the point above... under normal oxygenated circumstances i would never have thought this....

yeah, that's it...

3 repeats of a 2 row pattern with 400 stitches.....

oh and let's not forget the increase row is one of the 2 row pattern... so taking that out of the equation i have minimally 2400 stitches left to knit before i start the next part of this pattern.. no, not finish the pattern, begin the next part.. and there's at least 12 inches of pattern to the next part.. all stockinette.. all in the round.. all done on size 4 needles.. it will take me until december to finish, i know it will..

especially since i bought even more yarn today to start on xmas pressies for the girls..

oh and juliet.. yeah, still not finished.. wanted to finish it two weeks ago.. still sitting pretty much in the same position it was two weeks ago.. about two inches to go..

if i ever finish a project, and that means finished to the point of wearing, it'll be a miracle..

at least it's not for a lack of trying.. and trying while adding new projects to the fray...

not an error of the operator...

sometimes i'd like to throw my computer out my window and watch it break apart into several pieces.. then go down and complete the job by beating it with a hammer or bat or the like..

i try to register with interweave press to get their newsletter and to be able to download the "tomato" pattern by wendy b. only to be told over and over again that my cookies were not enabled. i went into my options three times and reset the cookies to "enable all cookies" and restarted explorer three times... and got the same message three times.. needless to say i am ticked...

i think i should just get rid of explorer and download firefox.. bill gates can bite my ass..

oh oh oh it's magic, you know...

last night while watching phenomenon i found another reason why i think criss angel rules.... after this so-called "medium" finished his act which was completely ridiculous - he was supposedly "channeling" the spirit of some dead writer.. and proceeded to act like he was having a seizure and writing backwards (i have heard of channeling through writing but in the accounts i have read about the people do not talk about having to go through what this dude did).. all in all completely fabricated.. so he gets done with his little act and criss angel pulls an envelope out of his pocket and offers the guy a million dollars of his own money if he could tell him what was in the envelope to prove that he wasn't a phony. the guy started insulting criss, calling him a bigot (uh, what?) and basically was ready to throw down with him. and being that it was a live show- they cut to a commercial. still, it was cool as hell to see criss basically call the guy out on live tv and not do the whole goody-goody "it was entertaining, but i'm not sure i buy it" type of thing. i have mad respect for him "keeping it real" - even if the premise of the show is to fake people out through illusions. optical illusions is one thing, but claiming you can talk to the dead is another.

today was my day off and i spent it, not surprisingly, knitting. i am working on two sweaters at the moment - one is 70% finished now, the other barely begun. the one that's barely begun is not for lack of effort either - it's on size 4 needles though and right now i probably have over 300 stitches per round (by the end i'll have over 450). let's just say this - i cast it on last sunday, and i'm supposed to do 26 repeats of a two row pattern. i have done 13 of these repeats. yep, it's a slow mover.

onto ravelry aka crack addiction for a little bit then bedtime. work comes early!